When you believe

Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful a song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know theres much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could, whoa, yes
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
[Mmmmmmmmmyeah]
Mmmyeah
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer bird
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now Im standing here
My hearts so full, I cant explain
Seeking faith and speakin words
I never thought Id say
There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill (Mmm)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)

personally i think this song is very appropriate
during this period of time.
guess we must all have confidence in ourselves tt we can succeed!
in getting the desired grades.
everyone work hard! :)

popups are really the most irritating thing tt can exist on earth
and in the 1st place they shldnt be called things
they shld be called online DEVILS.
spyware too. i HATE THEM.
i want to exterminate them
hackers really have nothing better to do
i despise such ppl.
cant they spend their time doing sthg more constructive!

wonderful my computer is majorly screwed
everything is like "stuck"
hard to explain.
but i can only say packard bell sucks.
spoiled all my mood.
wonderful!

decided to have a new layout since it's a boring, scorching
sunday afternoon. adopted one of blogger's conventional
boring simple layout. suits my mood now. it is simpler
don u think so. yups. it is easier to tag also i guess yups.
and i decided to type in paras. on impulse.
btw the quote above is written by Henry David Thoreau
whom i have no idea who he is. got it from some
quotations.com page. i feel like i am writing some essay with 2 finger spacing.

those were the days...
*do not laugh but i actually place my index and my middle(oops!) finger
at the start of every paragraph during pri school*
*hopscotch during recess time at the carpark*
*the 10 cent fishball and meatball*
*the "totally-can-make-it" chilli*
*the bad-tempered, fussy, petty me who gets angry over the smallest issue*


5 3/4 yrs have passed ever since i left ccps.
have i changed for the better?
maybe, maybe not.

many unhappy things have occured in my life since then.
and i have to live with some of them forever.
i don't blame anyone for that.
i have only to blame myself.
i guess?
many times i find it hard to express how i feel
be it to ppl or in this blog.
sometimes i wish i am a more expressive person.
i wish i can overcome my fears of dogs and cats.
i wish i can stop being so temperamental...

apparently, i have switched back to the "every-line-one-short sentence" way of typing
my thoughts don't flow.

school starts tomorrow and i really fear for the worst.
think i really slack these 5 days away.
it seems like 'a's is OVER.
i guess it gets really boring if u stay at home for more than a day
there are no interesting tv shows. cable doesnt provide any form of entertainment for me somehow...
need to buck up after today.
time waits for no man..
i don't know if this phrase/sentence ever exist.
but that is how i feel.

neighbour: hi...though we only live a block apart. we still sms each other. maybe we shld like send pigeons haha. ok. enjoy these few daes before i see ya on mondae again.

actuallie, i wonder if u will read this.

haha 

just finished watching golden faith
oh so sad
2nd last episode..
tmr will be the last epi :(
cant believe i watched the whole 46 epi series
watching amazing race repeat on axn now
i noe who won alr
if i am not wrong
i hope i am wrong though
shini's fault. come and msg me and tell me she is glad who and who won haha
ok tv time. 2 hrs special
i love days whereby there's no SCHOOL.

dinner was not bad.
the girls were entertaining.
i think marche stingray suck
i rather eat some hawker one
cos marche's one. the chilli is lk sweet spicy.
i like really HOT ON FIRE KIND haha
took neos! we sat on the sofa
hurmph i didnt!
nearly got killed by the SLIDING thing
cor, like the 905(what no it is) bus we took to stad tt time can
i mean like the door open and close so fast!

oh, they are supposed to find philippines flag
easy what haha.
rest well everyone :)

well, prelims is finally OVER.
lessons resume as per normal next week
sucks man. and heard we got a hands on bio prac
i hate pracs. ALL PRACS.
and i think we are having some gp and chem mock coming up really soon
crap. cant they just leave us in peace to study
we, i mean I really need the 1mth to study
prelims is how screwed :(
i guess i really need to start much earlier than the rest of the pack
my brain processes info much slower than a snail.
sigh.
whatever it is, i can watch tv in peace and happiness tonite
but i am faced with a dilemma
there's amazing race at 10 on ch 5 and my all time fav golden faith at 10pm ch 55
which means i cant watch bth at the same time
and both are equally impt to me.
i sound lk i am deeply in luv with them or sthg. they are only TV SHOWS.
and it's like todae is amazing race last epi. hk show 2nd last epi.
and guess wat. there's a repeat of both tmr
hk show at 1030 and amazing race at 5 on axn
what if i oversleep and miss hk show. i just deserve to die man
anws. i bet i am boring u guys.
paiseh!

alrights, everyone enjoy urself
and sianlye, i noe u still got one more ppr on fri. jiayous!

dinner with cor and co later.
time for me to "work" again haha :)

like some family photo! thanks cor, i managed to retrieve the photos somehow!  

see i am learning fast..
aspiring photographer. claps*
paiseh ah. haha.
anyways. haha. i can create my own albums now.
don need fotos from cor liaos.
thanks ah cor!
yups!
bio mcq tmr
whole world in hol mood liaos
i shall go read mitosis and meiosis aft my lunch with onion rings.
:)

from my classmates! thanks a lot! 

this is a gift from ng! :) 

thanks to cor, lydia, steph, singing and rux!
it is defintely wonderful!
i am still trying to learn how to use it.
slowly one step at a time haah!
thanks.
and cor, the black one is nice! thanks!
thanks to all again! :)
hope lady luck will be u guys for the rest of ur pprs ok!
jiayous jiayous jiayous!

----
abt todae
-> econs was terrible. case study was sucky. so was d r q and mcq.
let's just hope i can pass
mrs lim will kill me.
i feel bad.
and i got to study for my chem now. 2nd last ppr.
a bit of chem knowledge

to find no of isomers of a organic cpd
2^n
n- no of double bond displaying cis-trans and no of chiral carbons.

thanks to all who remembered
yup. it's kinda sucky
stuck in the middle of exams.
lk some ppl say
i will have lady luck
so am i having lady luck so far
i doubt so.

will blog more again.

pizza hut beefballs make me feel lk puking
and i think i got a sore throat.
not again?!

if u have studied bio paper overall is ok
p3 was okay. not as bad i thot it was
but again. i realise i wrote a lot of wrong stuff
and i think the bio teachers are gonna think i am dirty minded
or screwed up
i realli thot my ans was the ideal ans.
ok, the more i think abt it, i think i am mad to have written those ans! :x

cant believe how clumsy i was
i lost my black sweater
and i think i left my white one in sch too
cos i couldnt find it
tt is why i hv been bringing the black one to sch
and now the black one's gone too.
sigh!

there's simply nuthg nice on tv now
'cept for my golden faith.
but it ended
and i refuse to study.

amazing race was great tt dae
how pissed i was tt colin and christie are still in
i don like colin.
he kicked the cow, scolded it and everythg. so mean.
MCP. keep scolding christie too.
just hope tt brandon and nicole will win!
and i realise colin and christie loves spore very much
they keep takg spore airlines!
so lucky! haha.

been online for about let's see
one hour plus!
i am supposed to be mugging away for bio p3
and i told myself tt i better do better in p3
cos p2 was hmm. if u studied shldnt be a prob. but info in my brain was like fragmented.
and they don wish to integrate into the CORRECT piece. how bad it is man!
and i still want to watch tv
aft todae's paper i behave as though exams is over
cos i have a dae off tmr
all thanks to phy!
i was telling my sister tt "it feels great not to study, watching tv without worries"
ok tt is during 7pm to 1130pm.

econs p3, maths p1 p2, chem p3, bio p2 and gp DOWN
make me think of proportion and null hypothesis and etc
at least i can shove them to the bac of my head now. for a week at least!
all the angles vectors stats and lalala...

sexual repro took june 3 DAYS.
i have 1 dae! and there are like 5 chps??
and it is gonna be a battle agst time.
1hr 30mins!

and guess what. for each of the paper mentioned above
i didnt complete AT LEAST 12 marks.
and for chem.
i didnt do the whole of section A. 30 marks gone. bravo?
i think i am a laughing stock
i have no speed
save me.

btw, jay is going to hold a concert in nov 27
and guesss what
the status of the 148 bucks seats is like "LIMITED" now
when they havent even release the sales to the public(23 sept)
u mean mastercard holders are all qi li xiang's lovers?
this is peculiar!
sigh. i have no money! for the concert.
thot he will b coming in jan next yr or sthg
tt is too fast lah! argh.
cant believe i went to the "THE ONE" concert last yr!
oh it's last yr only! i cant believe it la
still rem tt i didnt go for og bbq becos of tt
who cares abt og
jay is more interesting.
shall try my luck in winning tickets
like some auntie. don care hahas.

on a sadder note
this old man chose to end his life at BISHAN MRT STN.
like huhs again.
3rd case at bishan alr.
i mean no matter what, PROBlems can be solved!
ppl. call the hotlines if u need help!
and does he noe tt by jumpg there
u are hindering the smooth flow of mrt traffic!
sigh. think smrt ppl getting really busy nowadays....

lucks to all taking prelims!

someone just knocked on my door
i am AP-ing
not opening!
too bad
cos my door doesnt have a peepg hole(watever u call tt)
hope it's just some salesman.

hey sianlye,
i shall copy u.

i don see a link between bio/chem/maths/econs
and MY FUTURE

bio- i don want to be a doc. why did i take bio? cos i hate phy
chem- i cant picture myself as a chemist. i am so clumsy. and blur and slow. i will be sacked before i hand in the report on data analysis of chemicals.
maths- to be realistic, yes, i want to be an accountant. but like hello?! why am i learning abt vectors, dy/dx, integration, TRIGO. i don want to grow up to be some boatman to noe how to navigate boat to an angle of 45 degree. takg into acct wind dirn, current flow.
econs- it's info overload. and it's on MONDAY. yeah. MONDAY.

think i feel even lousier aft typg this
anyway, i don think i got a choice.
so i have to face it.

hmm
give me some space to complain
really cant take it anymore
i only did like 3 chps of organic chem todae
(there are like ten thousand organic chem topics)
and applications of dy/dx
my progress
is really

失败.
我觉得自己真得很没用
为什么我像只乌龟？
不，我看是蜗牛吧。

time seems to fly so fast
before u can even catch it
i don think i am making sense over here nvm
it's for me to immerse in this pathetic environment of mine.

for those taking exams soon,
GOOD LUCK!
i bet u guys are like gallopg horses!
this description sucks.
whatever.
no motivation.

O U T.

i think i shall go and read a few pages of RX
and i shall see what i shall do
maybe i shall read a book.
tkam?

i seriously cannot believe it tt it's 5th sept todae
the last blog entry was on 31st aug
which was abt 6 days ago
and the stuff i studied these 6 days defintely wasnt proportional to what shld have been studied.
it's abt 1 week more
and i don really don noe HOW?
there's really no time!
and i always find excuses to take naps here and there.
time is really running out...

hmm
this colour perfectly fits my mood now
in a quite pissed mood now
cos i cant seem to get down to studying
i am seriously feeling sleepy now
as in i don noe if i can sleep if i lie on the bed
but i just have the "I WANT TO SLEEP" feeling.
argh.
it's like 1 week 4 days more to PRELIMS
sigh. i really don noe how.
so ridiculous
yesterdae i was like sending e-cards to everyone
encouraging them
must jiayous
and i am like such an idiot over here
crawling to the finishin line
stopping by the lake many times to slack
how am i supposed to complete the race like tt?!

ARGH.

think the celebrations at vj was a blast or sthg
there was a musical
tink we missed out a lot
sigh. BIAS. how come the performance is so nice this yr?
argh.
still thinking whether to send my tchers an sms saying
"happy teachers' day!"
but i don think i will.
i don really feel anythg towards my teachers
actuallie i have to blame myself for being such a hermit in front of my teachers
sometimes i wonder how many times did i speak up, contribute anythg during GP?
and when i ask qns. it seems tt all the qns are DUMB QNS. whatever.

and i always think teachers don recognise me seriously.
i just got this "dao and unfwenly and ppl-can-easily-forget face"
sigh. seems like the teacher who left a lastg impression on me is
chen lao shi.
i sent her an e-card yesterdae! and she sent me a "thank you" email.
so happie. i am just overly happie lah ok.

4t pals- shall we go visit chen lao shi one dae? erms i noe i am mad. i said i wanted to go beijing here and there like i got few million in my pocket. when the actual fact is tt i only got a few small notes in my "current savings". but erms. i guess she will be stayg there for quite long. perhaps we can like visit her NEXT YR? or NEXT NEXT YR. i think it will be cool. but if u think my idea is dumb, then forget it. anws. i think only a few of u will read this. i mean like 2 or 3? never mind.

anws, i got to admit tt my sn teachers really put in a lot of effort
esp mrs tian and mrs koh

mrs tian- ULTIMATE MAN. serious. she piles her with mountains and HILLS and valleys of notes. lit notes. tt is the most unforgettable. i am so ashamed of myself for not reading everythg. i think i only read 1/10? and i admit tt i havent fin reading tkam and julius caesar. what an embarrassment. actuallie, a few mths ago, i tried my best to start reading tkam from the beginnning but i failed. it is just sleep-inducing. actuallie, ALL BOOKS are sleep-inducing to me.

mrs koh-marvellous maths tcher. whatever qn u shoot her, she will ans it for u. all the extra lessons(jh, got right!). she really put in a lot of effort. but i think her memory really qt poor. she couldnt rem most of our names when we went bac last yr. nevertheless, she's good.

chen lao shi-i guess she noes tt i am quite a hermit like lao tse. i once told her tt i didnt really dare to make announcements(jiehui, i really told her, can u believe it?) in front of the class. and she kind of like encouraged me(if i never rem wrongly) and like she noes tt i made some improvemts in my public-speaking skills here and there. hahas. actuallie, it's only class-speaking. anws. she's really v nice. all the HERBS she got her mother-in-law to prepare for us. and the heart thing. and i rem going to her house! at seletar! and this song she intro us. i think my class wanted to sing it for grad(which we didnt in the end).

sigh, actuallie , all my teachers are nice. some quite funny. i admit i am quite bias towards a few. but i think tt is not bad afterall. cos i always rem them for being bias. actuallie, many a time, i am the bias one. haha.

jc teachers. in general not bad.

miss yu is a super smart tcher i got to say. and she is so approachable and fwenly and sweet. i always get such smart math tchers.

mrs yik- hai hao la. quite high entertainment value at times(i sound like spore idol judge). she is quite erms. crazy sth. i will NEVER FORGET tt she scolded me on the 1st dae(but i cant really rem over what). she is quite nice lahs hahas.

i think mrs lim confuses herself. i think her baby is giving her too much stress and pressure. econs class is always so dead :x

mr teo is quite a nice ct lah. 'cept for the cheapo chocs he gives us. i believe tt if we really have the desire/perseverance to do well in GP, he will really try his best to help us!

ok, end of my teachers' dae blog entry.
i shall do sthg abt myself now.
before tt, i shall go fry the hotdog bread.